rizuk01 ◾ ◾ Turbulent Rain [ IC Vianca Blurb ]

The area was quiet, bright, beautiful. The only sound she could hear was the noise of her heart pounding furiously into her ears, her body worn to exhaustion as she finally collapsed under a nearby tree. From the time the sun had risen to now, it must have been at least six hours since she left the mansion and arrived here. Six hours more since that day... The day that started to make her question just what was important to her and what she was willing to do to get it. The thoughts made her wince and she wanted to tear out her hair, for being so undecided about something so important was nothing short of infuriating.

She was on her feet again soon, sword sheathed into its scabbard before the woman walked, stopping at a nearby lake. Her boots and stockings were removed before her feet were placed into the cool water, the woman sitting by the shore as she simply let them soak. It was a relief to sit here, but now that she wasn't training with her sword... All she could do was think. A sweaty glove was removed, the woman examining her own rough skin before those calloused fingers brushed silvery hair away from her eyes. Those hands so coarse and tainted with blood, the blood she had shed for the sake of the Vongola, for the boss... Those hands could never be the soft and gentle ones of a mother.

The thought had tormented her ever since she had realized it was there, what was happening between her and that person. How the relation of Boss and Guardian had blossomed into something more... Something most would consider forbidden. But it wasn't even the aspect of the Vongola blood being tainted that got to her... Arcangelo would probably be the one who would be the father of the next Vongola Don, and they did need someone to carry his child. But... If it was her...

"This would be fucking easy if I was just born a man," She muttered aloud, pale blue eyes glaring at the ring in her hand before it gripped tightly around the hard metal. She was his Rain Guardian, a swordsman and a key member in the mafia. What had been tormenting her this whole time was that... She couldn't be a mother, too. To bear children would be accepting that she was a woman, weak and helpless under the care of men. To give up her ability to fight in favor of carrying on bloodlines... Maybe even possibly die while being used to pass on that blood. The prospect was one she loathed with every fiber in her being, and yet she couldn't bring herself to completely shun the idea. That had to be the most irritating part. She couldn't shun it because... She loved Arcangelo. She wanted to share everything with him, be one with him so badly... But... At the same time, if she did she'd be giving up almost everything else. The sword, her position as his guardian... Everything.

It... Had to be one or the other, she found herself thinking as she looked at the tranquil water's surface. It was either lock away her feelings and grow colder, or allow them to take over and become warmer. The first would allow her to stay, to be the Rain Guardian and to stay strong and fight. The other would turn her into a lover, a wife and more than likely a mother. It couldn't be both, it could never be both. What would bother her for the days to come would be... Just what her choice was going to be. His Guardian or his Wife...

It could never be both.

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This would not leave me alone. A little blurb written looking into Vianca's mind about her feelings and the choice she's being faced with. Aha... Hope you had fun reading it?

Characters:
Arcangelo [

vongola_secondo ]
Vianca [